Summary: In this heartfelt reflection on the pandemic, a teenager shares their thoughts and experiences. They express feeling caught between the expectations of adulthood and wanting to enjoy their youth. The pandemic led to a loss of interest in activities they once loved and a sense of time slipping away. They also highlight the importance of safety measures and feeling prepared for the future.
Takeaways:
š§āāļøBalancing responsibilities and enjoying life is a challenge, but finding time for oneself is essential.
šÆDon't let the fast-paced nature of life prevent you from asking important questions about yourself and your purpose.
šļøAppreciate the safety measures in place and prioritize personal health and hygiene.
šŖThe pandemic has made us more resilient and better prepared for future challenges.
I donāt know if I can say that the pandemic has taught me anything. I know it was hard for everybody, and I know that a lot of people had it worse. The COVID-19 pandemic is not something I can look back on and say with confidence I remember every day like yesterday. I barely remember any of it. It seemed to go by so fast, but I still feel the days drag by. I do remember the feelings I had and what the pandemic made me go through.
I am going to be 16 years old on Nov. 22, and Iām scared. I still feel like I should be 13. I should be running around, laughing, making mistakes and asking to go over to my friendās house. But I missed out on that. Now I am told to act my age; youāre going to be driving soon; youāre going to be graduating; you are going to be paying bills and moving out in a couple years. But then again people tell me to let loose, be a kid. I donāt know how I am meant to be both. I donāt know how to take time for myself, and I donāt know how to say no.
Because of COVID, I lost interest in those things I used to love. I quit gymnastics; I havenāt picked up my fiddle in months; I canāt remember the last time I went outside to play tag.
Some things I regret giving up. But sometimes I remember how fast I had to stop. I remember how quickly I was staring at a screen all day. It makes me think about all the time I had: to go for a walk with the same music on repeat, to watch YouTube and get TikTok.
Now it feels like I have no time at all. Iām always busy, always running around and trying not to double book myself. I feel like I canāt catch a break. Everything is happening so fast, and it feels like I missed out on all the questions I was supposed to ask.
Instead of asking about who I was, I was asking about the new variants, the number of cases, how soon I could hang out with my friends, and if we had a COVID test. I never got a break from the new because I was living the new. I was in the middle of a pandemic, the kind you learn about in history, right in the middle.
I never realized how safe I could feel wearing a piece of cloth on my face or washing my hands with lavender soap every five minutes. Now I just feel tired, I feel so annoyed and so very worried it will happen again. Only now I am prepared.